Ceremony for Remembering
the Doorless World

                                        October

             where three we-horses mark ground,
turn snake our necks inside the guayla circle. My aranci,

             —etan, childfox
                                    out my fourth mouth, you drank
                          
                      then the year went dark

                      & our own flowers & fires & what we thought we were

though, still, our faces opened to
               the whooping of coyotes

at the canyon rim,
                          how they throw their voices out,

              falling, starless veils of lace
                                   over our still, black heads.

                            Awake I sit sentried with all my Sight
& the purple fennel musting after rain.
                     This hour

                                   Become my canyon, become my bottom of the world
listening for your breaths—to ward off nonbreath.

    Parent, my son—My son,
                                     a flicker barely

               born. Already

withstand the blanched eye of our grief

               One morning with our faces crying into
the arroyo it answers:
               Once there were no doors.
                                   No doors on earth, not a single one.

               —so when I listen I
still hear you still kicking the ball,

               laughing as you say the story of endurance.

               & the women flutter their flickering tongues
                                   a flock of sound suddenly aflight to be,
               for you, both here & further

                              they throw their voicebirds over the births

                              so we are three & simultaneous earths inside
               your coil of fatherhair to which I press my ear to hear
the histories, then the bell

               Then the whirl  The whir
                             of doctors above your beds,
               your noiseless struggle to be.

                                                        Stay.        Say. 
              
You are my Heres & Furthers
               Daddy, now I join the mothers

                  Remember, when you were a little boy
                             I used to hold you?